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A Mother’s Heart

As everyone knows, it’s Mother’s day on Sunday. I am actually one of those women who loves Mother’s day. I love how my little kids still give me hand-made gifts! It really makes me smile. But I know that for a lot of women, Mother’s day is hard. Memories surface. Our failings come before our eyes as we sit at church and hear about “Perfect” Mothers.

My goal with this post today is to remind myself and anyone else who needs a reminder that all that comparing we tend to do isn’t what Mother’s Day is about. Last I checked, Heavenly Father didn’t send any of us to be like anyone else except the Savior. And it’s impossible to be perfect in this life, but we can have that as an ETERNAL goal. After all, Jesus Christ had a normal mortal mother. Do I believe she was amazing? YES! Do I believe she was perfect, No- probably pretty close, but not perfect. This is my most favorite picture of Mary holding Jesus. What an amazing mother she was. What a load she had to carry. Did she seek help? I bet my life on it.

I have always loved the scripture in 1 Samuel 16:7 “…for the Lord seeth not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the LORD looketh on the heart.” Just as the Lord was teaching Samuel to look beyond the outward appearance when selecting a king, we too must look beyond out outward imperfect actions, and focus on the desires of our hearts.

I am super good at yelling. Like I could be a professional yeller. I am not proud of this at all. And years ago, I would let this feeling of utter failure at this one aspect of myself ruin my enjoyment of Mother’s Day. I would feel like my kids and my husband were only pretending that I was a good mom. Obviously THEY KNEW that I wasn’t very good at this mom thing.

Yet, somehow they still LOVED me anyway.

It took me a long time to let myself be loved even though I have so MANY imperfections. Even though I lose my temper, forget birthday parties, forget promises, get tired of being needed every second of the day and night.

Why do they LOVE ME ANYWAY?

Because they can see what sometimes I can’t. They can see my heart. My heart LONGS to always be full of understanding and patience. My heart LONGS to be always creative and stimulating to my children’s imaginations. My heart LONGS to be able to balance this whole wife and mother circus act. My heart LONGS to always be a patient listener. And my heart TRIES the best it can at any given moment.

I don’t start out my day hoping I’ll lose my temper or forget to wash so and so’s soccer socks. I start out my day every day praying for an understanding heart and the inspirations I’ll need for my kids. And every day I will fail at some things, and every day I will SUCCEED at some things.

So now, I must CHOOSE how to see my daily successes. I must choose to let the comments of “I hate you mom”, “don’t you even love me”, “you don’t understand”, etc just pass over me. I must breathe. I must believe the scripture that says,

“…there I will be also, for I will go before your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left, and my Spirit shall be in your hearts, and mine angels round about you, to bear you up.”(Doctrine & Covenants 84:88)

I count on His Spirit and His angels. I know that I can’t do this mom thing on my own. And I believe as I am more aware of that Spirit, I am able to have more calm moments, and less of the moments where I feel like someone else is controlling my mouth.

Tender Mercies by Annie Henrie

This picture usually hangs in my kitchen {it’s down for painting right now}. I love this picture so much! It is a constant reminder of that scripture about angels round about you. Heaven is closer than we often remember. We have help walking with us each day. I know I do. I know you do.

I often lately find myself talking to Heavenly Father about “my angels”. I will walk about my house and quietly talk to Him about how I need “my angels” to help me with patience or could you please send “my angels” to comfort or watch over my child. Heavenly Father has given us angels to watch over us. We can ask Him for the angels. He wants us to ask for them.

I pray that this week that leads up to Mother’s day you will be able to find joy in your mother heart. Find joy in your desires. Feel good about the things that go right, and let the things that fall apart roll off you. Don’t dwell on them. Ask for angels.

I love you all. And for those whose empty arms ache so desperately to hold a little one, to be a mother, I pray extra hard for you. I pray for angels to be with you too.

Life is Good. Share the Good.

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